Original Songs

V.

Pain.

Unbearable pain.

It comes, it goes.

Oh please, just go.

Love.

True love.

My grasp fell through.

And I lost you.

P.C.

Thought I had it figured out.

Guess that’s where I went wrong.

You kept telling me not to worry.

Had I listened, there’d be no song.

C.

Baby, Daddy loves you.

Baby, just believe.

I’ve got it all under control.

Please, Baby, trust me.

I can see what lies ahead.

You think you know what’s best.

But your Daddy will take care of you.

Baby, just rest.

V.

Trust.

Unwavering trust.

I cannot deliver.

And yet you require.

Love.

Unconditional love.

Even in the pain.

Your love remains the same.

P.C.

Thought I had it figured out.

Guess that’s where I went wrong.

You kept telling me not to worry.

Had I listened, there’d be no song.

C.

Baby, Daddy loves you.

Baby, just believe.

I’ve got it all under control.

Please, Baby, trust me.

I can see what lies ahead.

You think you know what’s best.

But your Daddy will take care of you.

Baby, just rest in Me...

B.

I’m sorry for the pain, my girl.

But look how far you’ve come.

I had to chip away the old to make room for my Son.

If I had left you there, remaining in your old skin.

This new work that is in your life would never begin.

But though its hard to trust me now.

I’m proud of when you do.

The way you rise from the ash, I see my Son in you.

C.

Baby, Daddy loves you.

Baby, just believe.

I’ve got it all under control.

Please, Baby, trust me.

I can see what lies ahead.

You think you know what’s best.

But your Daddy will take care of you.

All I need for you is to rest.

Baby, just rest.

Just rest.

Rest.

Verse 1: No-shave November

Some men just have sweet beards

To bless one, withhold from another

Oh Lord, is that really fair?

PreC: Here I am, poor helpless me, its all that I can do

To grow amazing facial hair that others would approve

Chorus: It seems my only hope in life for a facial mane

Includes illegal supplements, reckless abandon, or Rogaine

If my big plans to be legit ever come true

You’ll look back at me as the coolest man [that] you ever knew

Verse 2: Do I drive down to Walgreens

To see what I can find?

Or do I hand out all my cash

To this sketchy, creepy guy?

PreC: Here I am, poor helpless me, its all that I can do

To grow amazing facial hair that others would approve

Chorus: It seems my only hope in life for a facial mane

Includes illegal supplements, reckless abandon, or Rogaine

If my big plans to be legit ever come true

You’ll look back at me as the coolest man [that] you ever knew

Bridge: “Oh my gosh, this stuff stinks!”

I say as I lather up my face

But I know that in the end

A lovely beard will fill that space

v. /a poet I am not nor do I pretend to be/these writings are product of a mind that thinks nonstop/or so it seems/

/corrupted and defiled is the world where I reside/surrounded by restless evil hearts perceive and/beheld by eyes/

c. /In a land where wells dry up/And trees will lose their fruit/I look to Your Water/And Your Word will be my food/

/In a home where I’m not welcome/And where I was all alone/You adopted me/And You chose me to become Your very own/

/You are better than I can imagine/And words do not tell who You are/Because of my great love for you, I’m adopting Yahweh’s heart/

v. /they say that seeing is believing but I also know/that sometimes the most real things in life you cannot see/or so I’m told/

/He no longer roams the earth, He’s alive and right now/interceding for me by name only through His great and mighty powr’/

c. /In a land where wells dry up/And trees will lose their fruit/I look to Your Water/And Your Word will be my food/

/In a home where I’m not welcome/And where I was all alone/You adopted me/And You chose me to become Your very own/

/You are better than I can imagine/And words do not tell who You are/Because of my great love for you, I’m adopting Yahweh’s heart/

b. /words just seem so empty/repentance insincere/truly sorry yet the sin just reappears/

/caught up in debates/trying always to be right/while preaching the gospel, its the gospel we have lost sight of/

c. /In a land where wells dry up/And trees will lose their fruit/I look to Your Water/And Your Word will be my food/

/In a home where I’m not welcome/And where I was all alone/You adopted me/And You chose me to become Your very own/

/You are better than I can imagine/And words do not tell who You are/Because of my great love for you, I’m adopting Yahweh’s heart/

//We come together/We meet as one/We're more than a building you use once a week/We pray our lives speak worship/As temptation lurks 'round every bend/And, Lord-willing, we will see each other again/We live in community/We live as one/We seek to live Christ-centered lives every day/We pray we are contagious/Seeking Christ until the very end/And, Lord-willing, we will see each other again/We pray we become hidden/We hope that Christ shines through/I thank the Lord for you, my friend/And, Lord-willing, we will see each other again//

//I close my eyes as the breeze runs its fingers through my hair/As the sun touches my skin, it seeps all the way down to my heart/I scrunch my bare feet in the green grass, experiencing the freedom we've been given/I look into the clear sky that seems boundless/I thank God for making me and for days like these/What a perfect match//

This one describes what I think love will be like...


//He calls me beautiful and precious/When he strokes my hair, I get a little sleepy/He looks into my eyes and tells me he sees the morning sunshine/I lean my head on his shoulder and he tells me I mean the world to him/He makes me feel special/That there is no other like me/And when he holds my hand, I feel like the princess I am//

"...Of course..."

///Have I really almost lost myself this time?/Giving in to whatever claims my heart at the moment/I'm taken by the very thing my heart desires/Forgetting to stop and consider just what my heart needs//Everything seems so perfect/Of course it always does/Its the way life seems to work itself every time/Everything must be wrong/Of course it has to be/Is this really what life is supposed to be?/Is this really what life is...?//Suppose I compared you to every guy/Compared you to all the guys who claimed my heart from the past/My heart and I may not have loved any of them/Despite that, I allowed myself to get caught and to chase//Everything seemed so perfect/Of course it always does/Its the way life seems to work itself every time/Everything was so wrong/Of course it had to be/Is that really what my life is supposed to be?/Is this really what life is supposed to...//Be yourself is what I've been told/Let people love and love/Give of yourself until you have nothing left/But then what happens to me?/If there is no more me left to see?//Everything seemed so perfect/Of course it always does/Its the way life seems to work itself every time/Everything will be better/Of course it will be/My father can help me change inside of me/Is this really what life is supposed to be?/Is this really what life is supposed to be?/This is really how life is...intended to be///

::I put together this song and named it Cento. A Cento is "A literary work made up of quotes from other authors."::

V.
I wonder was she frightened?
I be that he was scared
Soon to be a parent of a child

This child would be so different
From any child before
And none would ever come that would compare

PreC.
As they entered David’s city
They sought a place to rest
But there was no room for them there

C.
I’m sorry Jesus, but I have no room for You
You must stay in this place where animals lay
This is the best I can do for You on such short notice
But I’m sure You don’t mind
Its not like this happens all the time
You’ll be just fine
I’m sorry but I’ve got no room today

V.
I take a look at my life
Things that my heart desires
Though they fill, my heart is still empty

So I venture out to find some more
I risk it all to be complete
I compare my life to those whose life seems better

PreC.
As You try to enter my life
And seek to reign in me
It seems that there is no room for You

C.
I’m sorry Jesus, but I have no room for You
You must stay in this place where earthly things reside
This is the best I can do for You on such short notice
But I’m sure You don’t mind
Its not like this happens all the time
You’ll be just fine
I’m sorry but I’ve got no room today

B.
Do I really deserve these things?
Do I really have these needs?
Or are they simply wants and desires that I have?
Even with the knowledge that these things won’t satisfy
I still chase after fleeting things again
When You will always be and have always been.

C.
I’m sorry Jesus, but I have no room for You
You must stay in this place where other things reside
This is the best I can do, this is an inconvenience
But I’m sure You don’t mind
Its not like this happens all the time
You’ll be just fine
I’m sorry but I’ve got no room...for You...

::: wrote this song about a little girl that has cancer. I nanny two little boys named Izek and Avy. Avy is only 2-years-old and has leukemia. I read online about this little girl who got leukemia when she was only 3-years-old and is now 6-years-old and still dealing with it. I may not know exactly what those families are going through, but I can only imagine what it feels like. I wrote this song for that little girl. I wrote this song for Avy. I wrote this song for you. Below are the lyrics and below the lyrics is one person's interpretation of my song. Please feel free to comment and share any thoughts you may have to add.:::


v1
a belle destined for greatness at the age of only three
golden brown, bouncy curls, almond eyes as bright as rubies
skin that smelled of moonlight and hair of strawberries in summertime
nothing could go wrong while all the world seems so right

pre-c1
but times like these remind us of the fallen world we’re in
it makes one wonder how life could be so cruel

c
she’s only a child, must she suffer?
she lays in bed drifting off to sleep
I often wonder what goes through her head
and what she sees in her dreams

does it hurt too much, does she truly understand?
I wish I could know just how she feels
with this poison through her body
it’s so hard to trust
with these doubts and to understand God
thank you, Lord, for who You are and for who I am not

v2
she covers her head and often spends her days around their place
her stomach is upset and weakness overtakes her a lot of days
her mother watches on and wishes there was more that she could do
worry takes a toll and she feels that prayers aren’t going through

pre-c2
a girl so young, still her baby, with the weight of the world baring down
her mother wishes she could only take her place

c
she’s only a child, must she suffer?
she lays in bed drifting off to sleep
I often wonder what goes through her head
and what she sees in her dreams

does it hurt too much, does she truly understand?
I wish I could know just how she feels
with this poison through her body
it’s so hard to trust
with these doubts and to understand God
thank you, Lord, for who You are and for who I am not

b
hold fast and wait upon the Lord
the strength you cannot find you’ll find in Him
when it seems all hope is gone and life has failed you
look to the ever faithful One
He understands the suffering of a son

c
she’s only a child, must she suffer?
she lays in bed drifting off to sleep
I often wonder what goes through her head
and what she sees in her dreams

does it hurt too much, does she truly understand?
I wish I could know just how she feels
with this poison through her body
it’s so hard to trust
with these doubts and to understand God
thank you, Lord, for who You are and for who I am not

Written By: Emily Vaughn and Sisa Hobson, Recorded By: Dan Webb

Sorrow swells inside of me
A rain cloud hovers above
It follows me wherever I go
Pouring water on my face

I’m trying to be patient
I’m trying to be kind
I’m trying just to understand
Why a baby has to die

I’m asking for your wisdom
I’m asking just to find
A peace to dwell inside of me
Of why a baby has to die

The cloud begins to lift away
Comfort pours in on all sides
Encouragement wipes the tears
God’s Sovereignty comes to light

I’m trying to be patient
I’m trying to be kind
I’m trying just to understand
Why a baby has to die

I’m asking for your wisdom
I’m asking just to find
A peace to dwell inside of me
Of why a baby has to die

I wish I could have seen its face
Or held it for awhile
God is love and He knows my pain
And He’s holding that child

I’m trying to be patient
I’m trying to be kind
I’m trying just to understand
Why a baby has to die

I’m asking for your wisdom
And you did provide
A peace to dwell inside of me
Of why a baby has to die
Why a baby has to die

___________________________________________________________________

This baby never belonged to us
Though it’s still okay to cry
This baby was God’s, so I don’t question
Why a baby has to die

God has proved His faithfulness
He’s shown it in our lives
God has given us joy again
God has brought new life

___________________________________________________________________


Dedicated to: Justin and Jessica Sampler (and to their first child)

Verse 1:
The day I gave up all control
Was the day my dreams came true
I could not even comprehend
All that’s entailed in Your great plan
Yet here in the midst of Your faithfulness I stand
Now all I can see are skies of blue

Chorus:
Now You’re making me beautiful
Now that I’ve given it all to You
You’re giving back to me and You’re making all things new

You’re making me beautiful
Letting my heart radiate
May my life be a gift to You

Now that I’ve given all I am
May I be hidden and may Christ shine through

Verse 2:
You’re blessings overwhelm me
And I don’t know what to do
I feel so undeserving
God, I am so unworthy
Yet I still praise You for all You’ve done and all You’ll do
Now all I can see are skies of blue

Chorus:
Now You’re making me beautiful
Now that I’ve given it all to You
You’re giving back to me and You’re making all things new

You’re making me beautiful
Letting my heart radiate
May my life be a gift to You

Now that I’ve given all I am
May I be hidden and may Christ shine through

C G
As I walk this way
Dm Am
Never leave my side
F C Bb G
The darkness in the forest seems to stay
C G
I can feel you close
Dm Am
As if you held my hand
F C Bb
But as the darkness nears, are you still there?

F C Bb F
Cause it seems as if I wonder through this wonderland alone
F C Bb F
I feel like eyes are watching me and they’re not yours and not my own
F C Bb F
I wish I could find my way back home to where I belong
F C F C
I long to lay in flowers again, to sing my songs of joy
F C F C Bb F
I long to sit back under my tree, I long to be back home, home, home


C G
I follow where they lead
Dm Am
I go into this maze
F C Bb G
I feel as it its walls begin to close in on me
C G
My soul begins to hunger
Dm Am
I long for it to be filled
F C Bb
But the bread I’ve been given only causes my hunger to grow

F C Bb F
It seems as if I wonder through this wonderland alone
F C Bb F
I feel like eyes are watching me and they’re not yours and not my own
F C Bb F
I wish I could find my way back home to where I belong
F C F C
I long to lay in flowers again, to sing my songs of joy
F C F C Bb Am C Bb Am
I long to sit back under my tree, I long to be back home, home, home


Bb C Bb Am
Oh Lord, I’m being chased by the King of Lies in the disguise of a good heart
F C Bb F
Please rescue me from this house of cards I’ve tried to build on my own
Bb C Bb Am
It feels like I’m surrounded by foolish people and their foolish celebrations
F C Bb
Lord, I’m on my knees, begging you please, bring me back home, home, home


F C Bb F
Cause it seems as if I wonder through this wonderland alone
F C Bb F
I feel like eyes are watching me and they’re not yours and not my own
F C Bb F
I wish I could find my way back home to where I belong
F C F C
I long to lay in flowers again, to sing my songs of joy
F C F C Bb F
I long to sit back under my tree, I long to be back home, home, home

Dearest Love,
I don’t know who you or where you are this night
But I know the day I see your face, that you’ll make everything alright
I dream
Of the day when I can linger in your arms
And I can picture you caressing my face, telling of my charms

And I know
That now is not the time I am supposed to know it all
But it doesn’t mean it makes it easier to not fall
And I feel
Its getting harder every single day
Not just to seek God’s will along the way
But to make it the center of my heart

Dear Darling,
You are my dearest, precious, cherished, beloved treasure
Just like the Bride of Christ gives a perfect picture
I pray
For you though I don’t even know your name
I know the day is coming where things will never be the same


Yes I know
That now is not the time I am supposed to know it all
But it doesn’t mean it makes it easier to not fall
And I feel
Its getting harder every single day
Not just to seek God’s will along the way
But to make it the center of my heart

I know, because God is my portion and my everlasting Love
That if I place my focus on Him, my desires will be of above
I feel
God drawing closer every single day
And I know He guides us every step of the way
All He desires is that we make him the center of our hearts

My Dear Sweetheart,
I long for the day your name to me is known
And when in my life you will make your home
And know that I love you


Sincerely yours,

On the first day of eating my cooker gave to me:
A Soda to go with everything.

On the second day of eating my cooker gave to me:
Two slices of pizza
And a Soda to go with everything.

On the third day of eating my cooker gave to me:
Three hot dogs,
Two slices of pizza,
and a Soda to go with everything.

On the fourth day of eating my cooker gave to me:
Four hamburgers,
Three hot dogs,
Two slices of pizza,
and a Soda to go with everything.

On the fifth day of eating my cooker gave to me:
Five onion rings!
Four hamburgers,
Three hotdogs,
Two slices of pizza,
and a Soda to go with everything.

On the sixth day of eating my cooker gave to me:
Six frencha fries,
Five onion rings!
Four hamburgers,
Three hotdogs,
Two slices of pizza,
and a Soda to go with everything.

On the seventh day of eating my cooker gave to me:
Seven pieces of steak,
Six frencha fries,
Five onion rings!
Four hamburgers,
Three hotdogs,
Two slices of pizza,
and a Soda to go with everything.

On the eighth day of eating my cooker gave to me:
Eight corn on the cobs,
Seven pieces of steak,
Six frencha fries,
Five onion rings!
Four hamburgers,
Three hotdogs,
Two slices of pizza,
and a Soda to go with everything.

On the ninth day of eating my cooker gave to me:
Nine mashed potatoes,
Eight corn on the cobs,
Seven pieces of steak,
Six frencha fries,
Five onion rings!
Four hamburgers,
Three hotdogs,
Two slices of pizza,
and a Soda to go with everything.

On the tenth day of eating my cooker gave to me:
Ten black eyed peas,
Nine mashed potatoes,
Eight corn on the cobs,
Seven pieces of steak,
Six frencha fries,
Five onion rings!
Four hamburgers,
Three hotdogs,
Two slices of pizza,
and a Soda to go with everything.

On the eleventh day of eating my cooker gave to me:
Eleven chicken nuggets,
Ten black eyed peas,
Nine mashed potatoes,
Eight corn on the cobs,
Seven pieces of steak,
Six frencha fries,
Five onion rings!
Four hamburgers,
Three hotdogs,
Two slices of pizza,
and a Soda to go with everything.

On the TWELFTH day of eating my cooker gave to me:
Twelve Sugar Cookies,
Eleven chicken nuggets,
Ten black eyed peas,
Nine mashed potatoes,
Eight corn on the cobs,
Seven pieces of steak,
Six frencha fries,
Five onion rings!
Four hamburgers,
Three hotdogs,
Two slices of pizza,

and a Soda to go with everything!!!!

Your eyes said you’d love me until the end of time
But words came too harshly and caused these tears of mine

These contradictions I cannot take
You cannot be both all at once

I need you to be here beside me
And not long gone, again
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Pre-verse:

Barbara Fantasy was a friend of mine

She’s the reason I’m singing this rhyme

She tried to eat out but her car broke down

She’s stuck in the middle of nowhere now

And her stomach is beginning to growl

Verse 1:

“Where am I gonna eat? I don’t know what I want

I heard Burger King has it my way

Sonic’s got it, other’s don’t

I’m so stupid, I could’a had a v8.”

“I’m thinkin’ Arby’s just a little bit

Taco Bell says Think Outside The Bun

Ba da ba ba baaaa I’m lovin’ it”

Chorus:

Barbara, Barbara Fantasy

Keeps on trying to call me

Signal wasn’t workin’ like it should
Verizon - Can you hear me now? Good.

I told her I’m busy, just leave me alone

Find some other way to get yourself home

Pre-verse:

Barbara Fantasy was in a pickle

All she had on her were three little nickles

But that’s not enough for a taxi

Nobody’s passing by and she ain’t that happy

In fact, she’s feeling crappy

Verse 2:

Barbara Fantasy feels a headache coming on

She couldn’t find her Aleve

She finally finds her Head On

Apply directly to the forehead for relief

On top of that her cars in trouble, oh my oh my

I could have saved 15% by switching to Geico

If a caveman can do it, why can’t I?


Chorus 2:

Barbara, Barbara Fantasy

Keeps on trying to call me

She said “my car ain’t workin’ like it should

I put my flashers on and popped the hood”

I told her I’m busy, just leave me alone

Find some other way to get yourself home

(Am-Dm-G-E)

Verse:
Coffee hair and boundless brown eyes
Seeing him here right now is no surprise
I’ve only dreamed of this moment for forever and a day
Since the day that I first met him, he took my breath away

The diaries are building up behind my closet door
I always have something to write about, but I’ve stopped buying more
I try to forget him and push him from my mind
But no matter how hard I try, my focus reroutes for the hundredth time

Chorus:
He doesn’t know the joy he’s brought to me or how he’s caused me pain
Even though he disappoints me, I come crawling back again
I feel like I’m peeking through a window and he doesn’t see me there
All I’ve ever wanted is to know he loves me and he cares

But no, all I’ve ever had are what seems like one-sided memories
Does he even know that I’m here?
Even if we never meet again
I’ll dream on as long as I can

Verse:
I find myself still searching for his car or license plate
Though we’re miles away I wonder if in a crowd I’ll see his face
The night I finally saw him, I felt as beautiful as I could be
And I nearly melted when he finally looked at me

My smile that night could outshine the bright rays of the sun
But as quickly as the night had come, it had just as quickly gone
But little things like seeing his picture on the computer screen
Or hearing his voice on his voicemail find me falling to my dream

Bridge:
Although he disappoints me again and again
In my prayers he still appears
And whether we are meant or not
My thoughts go back to that year

Verse 1:
He turned down the road in his car
John had not gone too very far
Before he saw it on the side of the road, all alone

It was raining and the ground was soaking wet
John pulled over to the side in his Corvette
He saw the poor ‘lil thing under a brown paper bag

He got down to his knees
Heard the little thing say, “Sir, please!”
“Take me home with you, for I have no home. I’m all alone.”

Chorus:
It was a:
Peanut Butter Jelly Sandwich!
Made up of Peter Pan, Smuckers, and bread!
Its eyes were made up of little blue candies!
Its smile was made from licorice, red!

Verse 2:
John reached out his hand with a smile
The sandwich didn’t wait for awhile
He hopped up into John’s hand, which was tan

John quickly ran back to his vehicle
He made sure the sandwich didn’t fall
He place him on the seat next to him and helped him dry

John cranked up his ride
Heard the little thing say, “you’re kind”
“When I grow up I wanna be like you!”

Chorus:
It was a:
Peanut Butter Jelly Sandwich!
Made up of Peter Pan, Smuckers, and bread!
Its eyes were made up of little blue candies!
Its smile was made from licorice, red!

Bridge:

Tears welled up in John’s eyes
He looked at the sandwich, small in size
Then paused when his stomach made a sound

The sandwich slowly looked into John’s eyes
It shrieked so loudly it caught John by surprise
As it tried to make its getaway, John grabbed it and soon savored each bite

Chorus:
It was a delicious:
Peanut Butter Jelly Sandwich!
Made up of Peter Pan, Smuckers, and bread!
Its eyes were made up of little blue candies!
Its smile was made from licorice, red!

Its smile was made from li-cor-ice--red!

Not quite sure what I should do
Where do I go from here?
With all that life throws at me
My pathway isn’t clear

Its not my vision’s blind to where I cannot see
You have simply chosen not to reveal it all to me

What do I do with longings for things that will just fade?
How can I turn my love back to only you?

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They say You can take my breath away
They say You have chosen me for Your own
With love like this I would never have desires to make anything else my home
I hear You never fade away
The things of You shall always be
It seems obvious who it is that I would choose
Problem is I can take my eyes off of You
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With love like this you would think
Nothing could tear me from your side
Yet everyday I choose to settle
For things that will never satisfy

Why is it I do the things I do not want to do?
Why is it hard to put the rest away and choose only You?

What do I do with longings for things that will just fade?
How can I turn my love back to only you?